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You’ve Outgrown the Land

I have good news today.  We aren’t talking politics.  Not on this blog anyway.  Trust me — no one is more relieved than me.

Today I have to say goodbye.  To a lot of people.  A lot of people that I’ve really come to love.  Today is that last day of my job.

Yes, change can be good and bad.  I don’t enjoy either kind.  Change is hard for me.  I like routine.  I like security.  I like comfort.

Nevertheless, I’ve been dreading today.  Ever since I got home from work yesterday, I’ve been pretty hum glum (is that a word?  no, I think I just made it up.)  Every since I found out last Tuesday that I would be losing my job, I’ve been really strong.  People have asked me how I feel and I always give a honestly optimistic reply.  I haven’t felt one ounce of fear.  I know God has my back.  But now it’s getting really close.  And though I’m not exactly fearful, I am starting to wonder — what am I going to do now? And goodbyes.  Oh, I hate goodbyes.  It’s the worst part of this whole deal.

But listen up here!  I’m not writing this blog to complain to you.  You don’t need my complaining.  I’m writing this blog because God just grabbed me by the shoulders and looked me squarely in the face and said: “Look up, Michelle.  Don’t look down.  I’m getting ready to move.”

And then He told me to go look up Abraham and Lot.  So I did.

Now Lot, who was moving about with Abram, also had flocks and herds and tents. But the land could not support them while they stayed together, for their possessions were so great that they were not able to stay together.  And quarreling arose between Abram’s herdsmen and the herdsmen of Lot. The Canaanites and Perizzites were also living in the land at that time.

So Abram said to Lot, “Let’s not have any quarreling between you and me, or between your herdsmen and mine, for we are brothers.  Is not the whole land before you? Let’s part company. If you go to the left, I’ll go to the right; if you go to the right, I’ll go to the left.”  –Genesis 13:5-9

So they parted ways.  Lot chooses the good, lush, beautiful land.  And what does Abraham get?  What’s leftover.  The Bible doesn’t illustrate how Abraham (then Abram) responded.  But I have my guesses.  I think he was disappointed.  I think he got the short end of the stick and knew it.  I think he was tempted to second-guess his decision to let Lot be the one to choose which land he wanted.  But I also think he felt great satisfaction in knowing that he did what God told him to do.

The LORD said to Abram after Lot had parted from him, “Lift up your eyes from where you are and look north and south, east and west.  All the land that you see I will give to you and your offspring forever.  I will make your offspring like the dust of the earth, so that if anyone could count the dust, then your offspring could be counted.  Go, walk through the length and breadth of the land, for I am giving it to you.” Genesis 13:14-17

I didn’t understand why God was having me read this passage until I got to that part.  I feel like Abraham must have felt — before God gave him that promise.  I feel like I’ve been living in the “leftovers”.  This job that I’m leaving — it wasn’t my dream job.  In fact, there were so many days that I cried for God to release me from it.  There were days when I felt so hidden and so obscure and so useless there.  It took being filled up with God every single day in order to not give up, to not throw in the towel.  All the while, I could see Lot — over there in perfect lushness, enjoying paradise.  And I’d think to myself, “Did I do the right thing?  I felt like it was right at the time.  I feel like I’m obeying God.  But I don’t see any manifestation of what He’s promised me.  And look, there’s Lot over there — living a charmed life.  Why didn’t I choose the good land and give him what’s left?  He’s just my nephew.”

Yeah, I’ve been there alright.  I’ve waited and I’ve waited.  I’ve stuck it out when I couldn’t stand it, when I hated it.  Even on the days when the promise wasn’t as clear, I stayed.  It was hard.  And a few months ago, things started to change.  I was called out of obscurity.  I began to operate in a gifting I never even knew I had.  And before my very eyes, the leftovers started to look a little like the lush green valley that  I surrendered to Lot.  Things were getting good.  I didn’t have to squint and dig for His promise.  Before long, I was skating through days and weeks with complete ease.  I enjoyed where I was at.

And then it happened.  I lost my job.  Now I feel like Abraham must have felt when he had to part ways with Lot.  Yes, I know my story doesn’t go in the same order that Abraham’s does, but stick with me.  I feel like God is saying, “You’ve grown too large for the land.  You can’t stay with Lot.  The land can’t hold you both.”

And so… Lot and I must part ways.  Do you know what Lot means?  I heard it means “veil”.  Abraham didn’t receive God’s promise until the veil (Lot) was torn away.  And I think that’s where I’m at right now.  I’m at the point of leaving behind what was really familiar and easy for me.  Because that familiarity — it can’t hold me anymore.  I’ve outgrown it.

And so, again, I wait.  I wait for him to speak the promise like He did to Abraham.  I wait for Him to give me new land — land that can support everything He’s put in me.  Land that won’t constrict me or tie me down or smother me.

And my eyes become misty when I think of Him saying to me what He said to Abraham: “Go, walk through the length and breadth of the land, for I am giving it to you.”  Such a promise scares me and fills me with wonder.  Am I ready?  I don’t feel ready.  Am I ready God?

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Letter to an Undecided Voter

Dear Fellow American,

This is the most important election you have ever voted in.  There are a lot of issues on the table.  The economy.  The war.  Taxes.  Should they be lowered or should they stay the same?  Wealth.  Should it continue to be a reward for hard work, education, perseverance and determination?  Or should we spread it around?

Those are good questions.  Perhaps they’re the questions that have prevented you from making a decision.  Whatever the case, I’m going to pose a question for you right now that’s going to take the “un” off of the decision that you need to make.  A question for which there is no gray area.  A question that will catapult you on one side of the fence or the other.

Which is more important to you: life or your wallet?

Yes, that is the real question at stake in this election.  But let’s be fair.  Let’s look at both sides of the coin.  When I voted, I didn’t know what all of the Amendments and Referendums meant — so I researched them.  I researched the pros and the cons for each one and then I made my decision.

Argument from those in favor of voting for their wallet:

  • Senator Obama promises tax cuts for 95% of Americans.  Cutting taxes will reduce the financial strain on working families, families facing foreclosure, families who have a parent who has lost a job.
  • One of the greatest burdens on American families is a stack of medical bills incurred from a family member with a major illness.  Senator Obama promises healthcare for all Americans, whereas right now, certain families are uninsurable.
  • Senator Obama promises to place a greater tax on the rich, taking a portion of their money to account for others who are unable to even put food on the table.

Argument from those in favor of voting for the protection of life:

  • Senator McCain believes that life begins at conception.

    Of the 200,000,000 sperm that try to penetrate the mother’s egg cell, only one succeeds. At that very moment, a new and unique individual is formed. All of the inherited features of this new person are already set – whether it’s a boy or girl, the color of the eyes, the color of the hair, the dimples of the cheeks and the cleft of the chin. He or she is smaller than a grain of sugar, but the instructions are present for all that this person will ever become. The first cell soon divides in two. Each of these new cells divides again and again as they travel toward the womb in search of a protected place to grow.

  • In the United States it is legal to abort a baby up until the day of birth.  In the next presidential term, at least two to three Supreme Court Justices will retire and new justices will be appointed by the President.  Senator McCain plans to appoint justices that are Pro-Life, in hopes that Roe vs. Wade, a law that has cost 50 million lives, will finally be overturned.
  • In a Partial Birth Abortion (D and X procedure) babies are “partially aborted” so the head is still in the cervix but the body is out. While in this position the live baby is still considered a “non-human” and has no protection under the law. The live baby’s brains are sucked out after being crushed by blunt instruments. Organs are harvested and sold to “researchers”. The baby receives no anesthesia and is alive until killed by the doctor.  Senator Obama supports laws that would revoke a baby’s rights, in the case that he or she is accidentally born during a partial birth abortion, allowing that baby to still be put to death.  The list of laws that Senator Obama supports that promote the aborting of innocent lives is endless.  He plans to make abortions easier and to use government funding to back them.
  • Every day in America over 3,000 babies die painful deaths by suction abortion, dismemberment, being torn limb from limb, prostaglandin hormones and now by being brutally killed seconds before delivery.
  • Since Roe vs. Wade, nearly 50 million babies have been aborted.  If Senator Obama becomes President, he will elect pro-abortion Supreme Court Justices, which will increase that number.
  • Nearly all abortions are done for reasons of convenience, not for any medical or physical reason.

What’s more important?  95% of Americans receiving a tax break — or 50 millions lives, defenseless lives, voiceless lives, lives that are planned from the moment of conception being spared from murder?  But I just lost my job.  What’s John McCain going to do about that, you ask.  I just lost my job too.  Why?  Because of the bad economy.  But I would give a lot more than a job, my wallet, the plummeting of my bank account to ensure that tomorrow, 3,000 tiny little lives don’t have to aborted (brutally killed).

Each and every one of us will stand before God on judgment day to give an account of every decision — good or bad — that we have ever made.  In America, we are blessed to have a political voice.  On November 4th, your vote will either be for or against the ending of abortion.

What’s more important — precious lives or your wallet?  As I said, there is no gray area in this question.  There is no maybe.  There is no undecided.  Ignorance may be bliss, but you are no longer ignorant.  You know the facts.  You know what’s at stake.  So what’s it going to be?

Sincerely,

A Fellow American

Abortion facts compiled from: www.abortionfacts.com

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